Open Letter to my Boaz…

Open letter to my future partner, husband, friend, and man of God… I may not have it all together and I am perfectly imperfect. But, Proverbs 18:21 tells us that, “death and life lie in the power of the tongue.” To me this means, there is power in my words and bringing them to life… manifestation. Lately, I have been more intentional about speaking life not only over my future marriage, but over every single aspect of my life. 2020 and 2021 have shown me so many things and relationships has been one of the many things that has been tested. It’s funny because what I think are failures, I’m shown that they were actually preparing me for what I am to gain.

I had this on my heart as I wait on hold for a customer service rep to assist me, lol (after 55 minutes they finally picked up – and I was done typing) so, I began to write in my moment of waiting. Many times we have to do just that…wait. I encourage all of you to wait on God. Fall in love with Him first and foremost, and know that in His timing, He will bring along the person you are meant to be with… or the things that you are meant to have. My faith allows me to walk in confidence knowing that every good thing God has for my life will come in the right time and not necessarily on my time.

In the moments that I feel discouraged, hopeless, overwhelmed, and wrapped in my own head- I’m reminded through my faith that God is going to turn things around. To my future Boaz, you too may have moments like these and what I know is… He is preparing you for me, flaws and all. If you are reading this, I hope you are doing well. Who knows… you may be dating, focusing on your goals, healing, or maybe even giving yourself some care. All that is okay… because I believe He is doing a great work in and through you as He is doing for me in this time of waiting.

I am praying for you… I know that when you find me… I will be all that you ever wanted. It’s possible that you could have any woman you want but you will choose me every time because I am who you have been looking for…you will see beyond my scars, my hurt, my past, my pain… and admire ME. Before you get to me… you will always put God first. When you find me, you would have already discovered the power in doing just that…I pray for the characteristics you will have- just like Boaz, let me name a few:

1. Well, I already named one- Man of God (foundation and good relationship)

2. Trustworthy- dependable, honest, reliable, and responsible

3. Good Character – remaining strong even when under pressure

4. Provider – hard working and willing to provide for your family

5. Protector – my safety is your responsibility

6. Compassionate- caring

7. Attentive- admire my beauty, qualities, and everything special about me

8. Integrity – this definition will do- the quality of being honest, having strong moral principles, and moral uprightness

While I go through my life journey until I meet you… (who knows, I may have met you already and it wasn’t the right time for whatever the reason) I will be working on doing my part as a women and being your Ruth… when we meet we will have our own love story. Until that time comes…

Leaving you with this, Romans 8:28 “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” The message is this, “Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.”

Romans 8:26-28 MSG

Thanks for reading and allowing me to share Kings and Queens… showing up as myself – unapologetically…until next time!

Live life and love… with purpose on purpose.

Peace and love,

Fontashia